that is the dominant factor in  society today.”

— Isaac Asimov

“It is in the knowledge of the genuine conditions of our lives

that we must draw our strength to live and our reasons for living.”

— Simone De Beauvoir

I am a Child of God, Universal in my life experiences. Changeable or adaptable to the constant changes in the events known as my life.

We’ve all heard the worldly, conventional ‘wisdom’ that there are two things one can be sure of in this life and that is death and taxes.

Hmm…I Asked, “Is this true? Is this what I can be ’sure’ of?” Sounds like something I don’t want to be sure of and that’s for sure!! No wonder everyone seems so unhappy and stressed out and balled up.

I’d kick and scream too!! And have. If this is all I have to look forward to.

In a peeking behind the veil moment…Aha!! Now I see it!! In childlike imagination, I shift my shape into a bird and fly high above and soar over the world. From a bird’s eye view, I am able to see something about my life in a whole other way.

Rising up and beyond the peaks of mountaintops and the clouds, the sun is always shining from this Higher view. Sometimes when I am doing a lot of ground walking, I forget this.

For awhile, I could not keep up with the constant changes. It was a being hit by a constant barrage of waves crashing into me and knocking me over then playing with me by tumbling and tossing me about like a cat with a ball of string.

I felt like I was being unraveled and I kept asking when this was all going to stop!!? Followed behind by thoughts of “I can’t take this or another thing happening to me or I’ll blow!! Well, obviously I am able to continually take it because it just keeps happening and I’m still here not blown up. The only difference now is, I have finally come to a place of understanding something about life.

The only thing I can be sure of in my life is that change is inevitable, a given!!

I was Inspired to Ask, “How do I learn to roll with the changes since I cannot change the constant changes? How do I go along with it?”

By becoming adaptable, changeable. Go with the flow. Become One with IT.

Open to the experience of IT.

Go along with it.

Harmony. Like Nature is harmonious. A wonderful example Nature.

Nature is a child’s playground for me. One can build whatever one imagines, using the toys that Nature provides. Great way to pluck the strings of ones imagination and create something new.

I find when I am open minded to experiencing something new everyday,

 I do.

My life becomes an interesting experience of adventuring.

Sometimes, I am faced with events beyond my control. They happen suddenly and swiftly and I find myself facing losses, feeling like I am being swept away, beyond the depths of my present level of living, adrift in a seemingly dangerous sea.

In moments like these I have looked through the eyes of viewing the world as not fair, why is this happening to me, I feel picked on, nobody else is going through this and of course why do I have to do this thoughts. The world is against me and seems hostile and forbidding from this ground view.

Yes, I’m having a nightmare and I am frightened. In observing myself in these moments by looking at my stream writing in my journal, I can see what I am doing or how I am reacting in these momentary events and changes.

I withdraw, close the shutters, blinds and doors and wrap my arms around myself tightly contracting.

I’ve closed my unfolding bloom to the elements. While this is a natural reflex, it is counter productive to allowing my good in. It is in these very moments of change that I must remain open to expanding and receiving assistance, rather than holding on tightly to a sinking ship.

I have and continue to learn, in times like these, Let go.

Release your defenses Julia. Instead of contracting, make another choice. Try it, try it Julia. Try something new. Be open to learning something new, a new way.

Rather than contracting your heart into a fist to fight against the raging adversities of life’s tides and conditions, open your Heart hand wide and reach out by extending it to touch the hand of a friend who is reaching out for your hand. This act creates hope in this Ocean of life. Instead of barring the door of my heart (also known as hardening ones heart), I now choose to soften my Heart by relaxing into, embracing my new beginnings.

Coming to this place now I also receive an added benefit. Time becomes my ally and friend and it comes easily to me.

Why? Because I do not fight it nor do I surrender to it. I move with it.

I am adaptable and changeable.

I am Universal Child of God.

Changes. Embrace the change.

Love to you always, extending my hand in friendship,

Hope is renewed.

Many Blessings, InJoy this day,

 Be open and willing to experience something new,

Julia

— Nelson Mandela

“Every child is an artist.

The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.”

— Pablo Picasso

I have been musing over something brought to my mind’s awareness. I have been sensing or being asked to reconsider, have a change of Heart in regards to my home space or the state of my home and how it is ‘telling’ of my inner home state.

My housing of Spirit revealed in my outer picture.

I find that this is why I am where I am in this moment and I now believe this is why I was given 3 grand children so early and so quickly in life.

Are We There Yet?

On A Mission to Find Our Life’s Purpose

“The human mind, once stretched by a new idea, never regains its original dimensions.”

— Oliver Wendall Holmes

“When our lives are given to the Holy Spirit to use for (ITs) purposes, new talents emerge within us. We don’t get our lives together and then give them to God, but rather we give our lives to God (Source) and then things start coming together. As our hearts open, our talents and gifts begin to blossom.”

— A Year of Daily Wisdom by Marianne Williamson (paraphrased)

“We will discover the nature of our particular genius

when we stop trying to conform to our own or other people’s models,

learn to be ourselves, and allow our natural channel to open.”

— Shakti Gawain

Recently I was involved in a discussion regarding the mission of finding ones life purpose. This is obviously of great interest as we can see many books and information that are based on how to know by finding the answer to this question.

I’ve noticed that it usually begins with a growing sense of dissatisfaction with my ‘ordinary’ current life experience as it is known in this moment. Thoughts begin to come into my awareness like I desire more meaning in life, I either like or don’t like what I am doing yet I know that I am here to do more by experiencing more. What is it? The restlessness is consistently building within. Nothing seems to satisfy me and I find myself at times in moments of complete boredom and frustration. Nothing seems interesting to me. A growing desire is there for something but nothing seems to be fitting that desire.

I am Being in a state of not knowing. And I am wrestling with it.

I have shared that Nature has been an amazing teacher for me. By understanding the cycles and seasons we can see the process of Life in active motion and learn how to go with it. A deeper trust growing our faith as we learn to understand that each and every experience is a stepping stone of this journey leading us to the discovery of our Authentic Self.

There is a season to plant, grow, harvest, rest and nurture then begin anew.

We want shortcuts, and we want it now. So we go about taking quizzes and psychological tests and trying out all sorts of things to find out how we operate in our own unique way. We seek to understand what makes us tick, who we are, what are we passionate about, what do we love?

I call this going through the menu of life. A sifting and sorting process.

Keep what is you in the moment and leave the rest.

Each experience is uncovering or unfolding our gifts and talents and abilities that we desire to put to ‘good’ use which seems hidden from us in this moment.

What I have been made aware of through observing my life and the life of those around me is that we tend to find things to constantly distract and busy us which sets us on a vicious cycle of searching that then leads to worry, angst and despair. We tend to create problems that needs solving or fixing. Have you ever noticed this? It tends to wear us out. We become weary in our minds and then our emotions reinforce this weariness and eventually it shows up in our bodies with little or no energy to do anything at all and sometimes we find ourselves with an illness or dis-ease, physical or mental.

An unspoken need to rest and do nothing being created by our Authentic Self.

A Divinely Intended opportunity to call oneself back from the leaving pieces of oneself behind in scattered emotionally charged experiences.

It is the moment to Be alone or All One.

As I continue to observe myself and have seen myself in moments of this state of unrest, I can in Inner Communication understand how this came about via my thinking and am good at making it seem to keep me from where I was desiring to be.

Being in My Rightful Place.

Being my Authentic Creative Self.

By allowing Love based creativity to flow, express, uninterrupted by keeping the the tap of my connection to Source open, Love is following Its natural course and is flowing from and towards my Being which is leading to my Highest Potential naturally serving in purpose for the Highest Good of All. It’s Love based in Its intention.

You are Being in a restful state of Peace and Joy. Resting comes from Trusting that All is already Well and Divinely Planned in life. I have a purpose for Being here and this is true for all who share this planet.

I have shared here about being conditioned by external influences. Has anyone ever said to you at any time in your life, statements such as, ‘you can’t do that or you’ll never be able to do that?, you’re not smart enough, talented enough, you don’t know what you are doing or talking about? Your head is in the clouds aka you’re dreaming?

Little seeds of doubt being planted by those who have forgotten their own feelings of passion and perhaps if you live yours then they will be able to see that they are not living theirs. It is Fear based in its intention.

When we go on autopilot these seeds are allowed to grow unawares if left unattended.

When we sense the growing unrest, the boredom, the lack of vitality or Energy, the I don’t know what to do or what I want to do thoughts, this is showing us that we are out of touch, communication with our Authentic Self who always knows what to do.

We cannot connect with our Authentic Self if we are not focused on our Inner State of Being where our True Nature resides. We are allowing all manner of thoughts to cut in line without taking into account whether our thoughts are lifting us up or depleting us with their messages.

Again, by practicing taking ourselves off autopilot we are able to focus on the thoughts streaming through. This is where the writing down of ones thoughts streaming through especially upon rising is very beneficial. You will be surprised at what is revealed or showing up on the page. It reveals what is in ones bag they are carrying around.

This is not conscious writing. It is just flow writing whatever is passing through your mind in the moment. You will recognize the ‘peanut gallery’ in there.

Once you begin to be aware of your thoughts, you can now begin to stay consciously aware of them and align them with your Authentic Nature’s Mind as is shared in the Sacred Prayers in this blog.

http://www.you-nique-by-design.com/Spiritual%20Growth/the-sacred-prayers/

I have taken 3X5 cards and written the entire Sacred Prayer thoughts down one at a time, practicing them until they became first language to me. Asking for Divine Spirit to breathe life into these words within my Being.

I am Eternal. (Child of God)

I am Immortal. (Child of God)

I am Universal. (Child of God)

I am Infinite. (Child of God)

One at a time until they will immediately come to mind in the moments when the Inner Critic raises it voice.

Practicing them allows them to become more and more first nature response.

These words will lift your Spirit and remove the weight of unworthiness that is falsely ingrained in each of us from the conventional thinking of society. Feel the words. This is our true language. It is the language of the Heart and it is felt and known.

See for yourself.

I will say that in the beginning, it may feel a little uncomfortable to say and think these thoughts. Ask for Divine Discernment and Wisdom to know what is True and not true. You are answered as you ask.

Your Higher Self will not lead you astray nor deceive you.

Your Highest Potential and Good are Its only purpose.

Once you have established your Rightful Nature, you are open to the leading of your Higher or Authentic Self because it remains in Constant contact with Source for your well-being. You can relax into the flow of Source because you are now open to IT.

You will find yourself Just being yourself without any agendas. Just showing up and participating in the moment. Naturally gravitating towards your desired experience and outcome.

Children naturally allow their experieces to unfold and then let them go. They are feeling oriented. They naturally radiate their energy based on what they are experiencing. Naturally calm, or gregarious, sometimes irritated, sad or tired. They respond to their moment and then forget it. Have you ever seen a child who played so hard that they have fallen asleep on the spot? See how peaceful they are as they rest. They trust completely that All is Well. We are children. We just forget.

Do you ever wonder why this is their natural essence or State of Being? I have.

So in Asking about these things I was shown to be more observant, pay attention.

Children come into this world with only their bare physical bodies housing their Spirit Energy.

They do not wonder if they will be fed or clothed or where they will live and in their most formative moments do not ask for anything at all. They already have it. They are the complete picture of Trust. Their imaginations are vivid and active and they are experiencing what they are creating in the moment. They do not consider anything impossible at all. Each day upon arising they cannot wait to have more fun exploring their imaginations.

The world is their oyster. They trust and know it to be so. They are relaxed in their trusting.

We are these children. We just forget.

Younger children describe the experiences of their day by the feeling of the events. Just listen and observe them. They uniquely animate their experiences. And then they let them go. Younger children do not seem to remember inconsequential details of their day.

Ask them what they ate for lunch and most cannot remember. Ask them a feeling question about their day and they will remember and when the day is past, it’s over.

Each day begins anew with children. An open palette.

We are these children, we just forget.

So, in responding to the question of ‘what is my life’s purpose?’

We are living it now. Are you In Joying your life or are you dissatisfied with your life?

What is defining your experience?

Your feeling based thoughts as your are relating to your Source.

Trusting or untrusting?

Are you peaceful in this moment or full of striving and unrest?

Ask to know the source of your emotions. What are they based on?

We begin to experience the ‘what are you going to be when you grow up’ questions.

Not allowing the natural abilities and talents and gifts to follow their unfolding course, we continue to put pressure on ourselves and now we are presented with the idea of having to ‘figure something out in order to survive in this world’ which leads us to searching for something that is already innate if we will only follow our Heart’s leading. Our passion, our joy of Being expressing. This can and does if allowed to continue, lead us to ‘wanting’ it all mapped out and ‘needing’ a planned agenda, like a mission to be pursued and it now becomes a mission impossible because of the underlying feeling of angst and striving to have to survive that accompany this way of thinking.

This is not living. It is about surviving. Big difference.

Something changed. From Being supported to now ‘needing’ to survive.

This life is not about surviving. All our needs are provided for if we know and trust our Divine Source of All Living. Our True Connection.

When we are open to the stream, all angst and stress eventually dissipate and now we are able to live in our Authentic Power as co-creators with our Creator of Origin.

Life imitates art. It is full of sound, color, light, energy experiences.

We align our experiences with the Energy we are expressing. We are naturally drawn to our unique experience. There is no doubt. We feel it emoting from the very Center of our Being. Like a child.

A child of God Most High. God as in our Heavenly Parent.

Whom delights in giving us the Desires of our Heart. Our hearts are One in desire with our Parent.

As a parent, I only desire for my children to have the best experiences in life which leads to their Highest Potential. An earthly picture of a Spiritual existence.

Are we there yet?

Yes. When we decide to tap into and draw from the Account with our name on it and use what is our Natural Inheritance.

Are we spending our Allowance freely or hoarding it away for another ‘time’?

You will know your Life’s purpose and mission when you know yourself. This can only be known by spending time being alone (all one) with your thoughts and sifting and sorting.

Keep the gems and return the unusable portions back to where they belong.

Now is the perfect moment to reconnect and reunite with your Authentic Self by bringing all the gold pieces of yourself you have left scattered somewhere else in the past back into the Present Oneness of Now Being.

Be Here Now and You Will Know. Clarity, focus, clear vision. Ask.

You will be able to see yourself in the mirror looking back at you.

Take your rightful place as Child of God by Divine Inheritance,

Many Blessings, Be Well,

InJoy the uncovering your Authentic Self today,

Trust that your mission is being accomplished,

All is Well,

Julia

not in seeking new landscapes,

but in having new eyes.”

— Marcel Proust

“Love is not blind.

It sees more, not less.

But because it sees more,

it is willing to see less.”

— Rabbi J. Gordon

“If one begins to look for love, he will find it.

If he puts conditions on love, there will be obstacles.”

— The Shariyat-Ki-Sugmad Book 1

“Love is not a matter of belief.

It is a matter of demonstration.

It is not a question of authority,

but one of perception.”

— Rebazar Tarzs (Stranger in the River)

Recently I was involved in a discussion in a forum I belong to, the underlying message I wished to share being about practicing Unconditional Love to others and what that concept can possibly be defined as.

I am an ongoing student in living in Unconditional Love as life brings me one opportunity after another to apply what I am growing into, evidenced by my actions.

I can only share what I have learned and am continuing to learn what being Unconditionally Loving means to me.

As Eternal Beings permeating (God Being) with the Unconditional Love of our Source of Origin (Energy Source), It’s our very nature to be so. When our outer eyes of perception are opened to this inner realization, it is from here that we begin to ’see’ this from the inside out and begin to live from this ‘point of viewing’.

The lessons are sinking in from the space between ones ears, going deeper within to ones heart space .

It’s realizing when I am choosing to shift my outer focus and attention from the ego mind, which keeps me in a state of re-acting (repeated patterns of conditioned responses).

The ego mind is focused on finding and maintaining the differences it thinks it is seeing out there in everything because it lives solely by relying only on the outer senses. Ego mind keeps trying to maintain itself as ’special’ by reinforcing a state of separation which is evident by thinking it has to ‘do something‘ to earn love, thinking love and worthiness are only received by gaining another’s approval. It is a false sense of acceptance based on an outside opinion of another regarding oneself.

When I am choosing to live by a Heart Led Intelligence, I know Who I Am without any outside influence. Love without any conditions (guises, ploys or motives) is Love that does not see any need to seek or earn from another what One already possesses. We live it when we are aware of having it. Seeing from a Knowing within the Inner Senses. The other way of seeing as Rumi says.

All are woven together within the same Universal Spirit. While we are also experiencing being Unique in Design and Purpose, we are all ‘made’ of the same substance, We are God breathed, this is our Divinely Originating Energy. When we recognize this and become awakened by the understanding of this, everything we see ‘outside’ of ourselves begins to change and transforms the way we see every thing in our lives.

A costume party of sorts where the same Being (God) is behind every mask.

Nothing as in Identity is ever lost, it’s only transformed. A process of alchemy.

From this ‘new’ understanding we can begin to live as the ever present gift of Love we are and we are being empowered to express this knowing in every moment of our lives to one another by our actions.

Our actions do not guide our knowing, our Knowing guides our actions.

Unconditional Love removes the barriers (sense of separation) to Love’s Presence of Unity.

In the Text Introduction to “A Course in Miracles” it states; “…Only the time you take is voluntary. Free will does not mean that you can establish the curriculum. It means only that you can elect what you want to take at a given time. The course does not aim at teaching the meaning of love, for that is beyond what can be taught. It does aim, however, at removing the blocks to the awareness of love’s presence, which is your natural inheritance. The opposite of love is fear, but what is all-encompassing can have no opposite.”

This course can therefore be summed up very simply in this way:

“Nothing real can be threatened.

Nothing unreal exists.”

Herein lies the peace of God.

What are the barriers to love’s presence and holds up these barriers that keep us from seeing and remaining in Love’s Presence? What ‘closes (bars) the door’ to letting the Love already within to flow?

My thoughts when fueled by ego led emotions creates the separating thoughts of ‘there’s a me and there’s a you’ thinking mind, it makes it seem we have different agendas, mine and yours and not ours.

Something I’ve kept tucked within as a jewel of Wisdom helpful in understanding what practicing Unconditional Love is, is this:

“Unconditional Love is doing by right action, what is best for the object of Love, no matter what.”

Unconditional Love is choosing by Right behavior (responding not re-acting) to the call or opportunity to Love the mirror image I am seeing in front of me not based on how I may feel about what I ’see’ in the moment.

Have you ever been able to see yourself without a mirror in this reality? That is what a projection is, a mirroring or outer reflection of what is inwardly focused on being created. My life is reflecting on what I am currently choosing to base my belief, my truth on, and it comes from my own inner thoughts, my mind. My thinking is originating from within me, not from someone else thinking for me, unless I choose to believe it is. Then I am believing I am not in control of my life.

Am I reacting by becoming emotional and taking offense or defending my position to be right and then projecting this onto someone or something else and say ‘they’ are doing something to me? This is what it means to think in separate terms.

 I am giving my Energy Being Self power out (allowing myself) to Be controlled by outer influences. Giving  my power away to an illusion or mirror image and not Being myself the Source of the image I am creating.

Worshipping the creation and not Worshipping the Creator.

Giving my energy to a picture and not enjoying the picture while realizing I am choosing to create by defining the picture.

I am the ‘God’ (creator) of my life.

Everything I choose is what Source is choosing with me.

My Source is InJoying this experience IN me.

We do not have to get entangled with the emotions or thought patterns and behaviors of another. By accepting and allowing what is in front of me to be what it is without judgment, I am removing the labels of approval and disapproval, acceptance and nonacceptance and I can remain in a peaceful state.

I can be okay with what is because I Know my approval comes from within myself. This is not an arrogant statement. It is knowing who we are. It’s by being aware that Loving in this way and already having this ability to love in this way is our natural state of being and always within us when we choose to be aware of this Love and draw from it.

We can by setting aside the tendency to automatically react from an ego led mind, change the results that come from a pushing against and shoving against another into the line of unrealistic expectations and feelings of ‘needing’ or meeting mine or another’s approval for acceptance.

I am able to choose to not disrespect, disapprove, or condemn another especially based on their behavior because I am trusting that the same ‘God’ that is in me and leading me is in each one and leading all in the same way.

All are acceptable as a Child of the Most High Father of Light, Love and All Living.

Un-conditional means there isn’t; an except for anything or unless you anything…before or after.

This Higher Love is founded on complete Trust that everything works out for the Highest Good of All. Not basing it on what I think I’m seeing in the moment with my physical eyes. I don’t know what your own chosen path is that leads you to home within anymore than you can know mine.

The word ‘within’ is referred to many times in all of the Holy Books. It is repeated over and over again. Why is that I Asked? Because, we forget! It is a moment by moment discipline like walking, to unlearn and undo the way we have been trained to see and listen and learn and turning around by learning anew to listen to what the Mind of God is revealing in our Inner seeing .

Being tuned into our Inner Guiding Self while moving in and out of a physical picture. I can be distracted when I am not paying attention to and focused on the real or true Source of my Being.

Does this mean we are to stand by and say or do nothing? Perhaps if that is what your Higher Self is telling you to do. Your Higher Self will lead you and guide you when you are willing to listen to It’s voice. Again, peace is a good indicator of who you are choosing to listen to and if you are in right action.

Becoming a parent is a one of the most humbling yet honoring experiences in learning to love oneself by practicing in loving others as myself without limitations, expectations or conditions. There are many opportunities to observe oneself, revealing what we really believe and where the beliefs are coming from. It is a Spiritually evolving experience to Ask, be challenged and move beyond by changing what and why we believe and do things the way we do.

How so?

Have you always agreed with every decision your child or anyone or yourself for that matter has ever made or is currently making?

Are you guiding only when prompted by your Higher Self or are you quick in controlling and directing by giving your advice whether asked for or not? Do you withhold love when your child or another is thinking or doing something differently than you would choose in the same circumstance? What is your immediate reaction when you are experiencing a disappointment in a choice or behavior that another has made?

Have you felt Embarrassed? Angry? Sad? Secretly pleased at seeing someone fall in an ‘I told you so’ moment? Do you shut down and close off communications? Do you feel like an open door when experiencing these things or a closed door?

Have you ever experienced being the giver or receiver of, ‘if you don’t do what I say (don’t listen to me, because I know better than you) then you will suffer from my disapproval and nonacceptance’?  You know the “Cut them off from my love” tactic.

Is this how we wish to treat another or be treated? Conditionally?

If you have experienced this and I believe we all have at some point, have you Asked why these life circumstances are being given to us? They just might be for our benefit to make us aware that we are doing to another what we don’t like being done to us. When ultimatums are given in thoughts or actions, we are ‘pretending at love’, ulterior motive, preconceived conditions.

Expectations. 

There’s a price tag attached. I will give you love for this in return.

Here is another opportunity to choose again, being given by your Higher Self whom loves you no matter what, and will do whatever it takes for you to find the source of false beliefs so you can make the shift to choose the freedom that comes from loving yourself no matter what, and then extending it to all others no matter what (unconditional loving) because it is your very essence.

There is no price tag to sharing this Love gift because there are no expectations to get something in return.

You just Love because Love is Who you Are. It’s your nature to be Loving.

Letting go of all results via expectations.

Not withholding the Highest Good for yourself and all others based on ‘feelings’, whims and false expectations.

A check yourself moment.

It is about sharing love with another because you love yourself and have more than enough to give. 

Receiving from an Endless Source.

Loving without conditions is being able to have a difficult but honest communication with another because it’s not based on fear. You are loving without being emotionally based. Letting one make their own life choices while staying centered. Choosing to stay or go on. Love based Knowing isn’t based on meeting another’s needs or having any needs of my own met by another to be loved.

Ego doesn’t like this. Ego likes self-importance and being needed. This creates neediness. You know, two halves (partial parts) make a whole.

Being In Spirit one doesn’t see needs or lacking. In Spirit we are Complete, Whole Beings. We forget this that’s all.

Unconditional Love is about Freedom. Whole Beings sharing a Loving experience together. You can actually begin to enjoy and grow together in relationships when both parties realize nothing is needed from another. You both have Love to share equally with one another. You are gifts to one another.

It enhances your love for yourself and for the other one of you.

It all begins when we recognize that loving ourselves no matter what, begins with accepting ourselves first, as we are right now in this moment. Let go of the I will love myself when I… that’s putting it off. Has it worked yet?

Choose right now, as you are, no matter what.

I encourage you to be your own genuine Lover of Yourself.

Watch and see what happens…

Many Blessings, Be Well,

InJoy Being the Love you Are by extending your Love to All of yourself,

You might just be surprised at how it changes your life,

Loving no matter what,

Julia

“Listen. Make a way for yourself.

Stop looking in the other way of looking.”

— Rumi

“Borrow the Beloved’s eyes. Look through those,

and you will see the Beloved’s face everywhere.”

— Rumi

“For it was not into my ears you whispered, it was my heart.

It was not my lips you kissed, but my soul.”

— Judy Garland

I have been sharing here in my blog about the evolving progression through my daily life experiences, what it has been like for me in my ongoing Spiritual realization of who I am.

I have been a part of the collective growing mind of consciousness movement all of my life here thus far, and as I look through the pages of the scrap book photo album I have created and am now sharing here with you, I can see the progress I have made and the way I have been faithfully led by an Unseen hand.

This Unseen Hand is still leading me and is bringing me to this place, having grown in my understanding to be where I am standing now, Authentically speaking in my Julia Voice, expressing from my Divine God Nature and now recognize is in all of us.

I see that IT IS the face of Divine Love’s Light, reflecting and mirroring, revealing Itself to me, in and through each one I meet and in everything I am experiencing in my life in every moment when I choose to allow myself to awaken and see in another way of seeing, everything that plays out in all of my daily living moments, by the living of my life as I have and now know IT.

I have referenced in my blog here the Unseen Hand. Another ‘name’ I can use is ‘The Silent Witness’. The one who observes what is going on at any given moment, the One I feel in deja vu sensing moments of seeing behind the physical seeing eyes, hearing beyond the physical hearing ears. My Authentic Divine Self contained in my unique body.

When I first responded to the beckoning invitation of a “Psst!” I was by myself, there was no one else physically present with me. While I was certain that I had ‘heard’ it, I wasn’t really sure if I was just hearing things or imagining things. It was a look around to see where it was coming from. Even though no one was there, I knew I had heard the “Psst!”

Being curious by nature, I decided to explore what I was experiencing so I began to Ask questions out loud, “Who said that! Who are you? What do you want? Show yourself to me, I want to know who you are.” Questions and thoughts like these began arising within me. I wasn’t afraid of it because with it was a deep sense of being safe and an underlying peacefulness in its presence.

I began talking to this Presence while I went about my daily doings. What is interesting to note at this point, is that I began receiving Answers to what I was Asking! Not audibly, but a sense of knowing ‘Someone or Something’ was answering me. Something in my physical world would show up and affirm the Answer I was sensing! H mm… this is fascinating and interesting. It created a desire within me to explore what I was newly experiencing.

I sensed I was onto something.

There were also the upheavals coming through my experiencing and like powerful waves crashing onto me I would begin losing sight of the shore of my security. I became fearful and afraid that I had somehow lost this connection and would never be able to find it again, thinking and believing that I wasn’t going to make it through whatever hell I was experiencing sometimes with the fear of being left a paralyzed shell.

This is what fear does to us. It feels so real that it creates a false belief that one can be separated from their (always right here and present) constant source of security, peace and trust, our rightful state of being.

Fear, worry and anxiety distracts us by changing the way we are seeing what is playing out in front of us.

I like everyone else, have had plenty of opportunities to go through the ‘repeating’ of these upheavals to the point where I was so exhausted in every part of my being; mind, body and soul; from my struggling to keep swimming against the tides, trying to keep my head above water, not knowing which way was up or down, I was fighting with it until I finally had no more energy to struggle, I stopped doing anything and I accepted where I was and surrendered myself to whatever the outcome would be that was taking place in this particular momentary experience in my life. This left me a space to see it from another angle, how I had been ’seeing’ it.

A sink or swim moment of choosing in my life. Do I keep fighting it or relax into it?

I chose to stop fighting with what was happening and let go. I didn’t sink. I floated and I rose up until I reached the surface, I could breathe once again.

Any surfer will tell you that when you lose your board in the ocean while surfing in large powerful waves, you are creating the possibility of drowning in the waves if you panic and begin swimming frantically to get to the top for air.

Why? Because light reflects into the water and it’s the many bubbles (separated water beads) which distract ones ability to discern which way is up or down. It’s confusing. It’s all water just different aspects of water. Close your eyes and ears to the distractions of looking at the separated bubbles. By relaxing into where you are, the body’s natural buoyancy will work with the water in raising your body back up to the surface.

Like one big self contained bubble.

Floating in water is natural when you relax with it. It’s Trust. Trust the water to do what it naturally does and what you naturally do in water when you are absorbed in it.

Trust that you already know what to do, no matter what it may appear to be right now, you’ve come this far yes?

How does this play into the Silent Witness?

As I view my life through the many experiences I have had so far, I realized there were a lot of voices in my head at one time. The frequent visitors. The bubbles of distraction in my ocean of life being. I call it the Ego mind.

Ego voice is an imitation and only a reflection of the Light, it takes practicing a moment by moment looking beyond the reflection to look directly into the Light, the source of the reflection. Do I close my eyes and ears to the daily distractions and listen by focusing on sensing and hearing the One Voice that can only be heard in the Silence? Or do I find myself panicking by seeking out the many counselors and by forgetting what I have heard and seen and known.

Like a child dropping its toy running to reach for the next one, just enjoying it all but not attached to any of them. They know how to play yet do not forget who they are after the playing is done. I believe this is why children sleep so peacefully, and do not experience Identity (ego) crisis.

They do not wrestle with being anyone or anything. They can enjoy creatively imagining being all these other characters without losing the natural sense of themselves, because they are all these characters in one being. They just don’t leave themselves scattered.

This is who we are when we just allow ourselves to Be.

It is a leave myself alone, leave myself Be, stop picking on myself state of Being.

By the growing into of my understanding, that It is what It is right now and not trying so hard to change anything into what it isn’t right now, I realize that by becoming One with all aspects of my life I grow in my trust of myself and everything that seems to be happening to me.

I Ask my Silent Witness, show me what and how you see, what you are saying and hearing, what is in this lesson of the Love I am evolving into? What are you reminding me about here? Each Answer has grown my trust to the point where now, I only Ask the questions when I am experiencing something that seems new to me. The Unseen Hand has been leading me through it all to the realization that the Answer is in Being One with myself. It is only in this position that I realize my connectedness to my Source of Life and all life.

This Silent Witness is my Very Essence, my God Nature, the Eternal Thou that is me, the very fibers of my being and woven into everyone and everything I experience. It has taken me years of practicing to get this. I kept listening to my many voices of Ego and all the while my Authentic Divine Voice silently watching and being present throughout it all. It’s not a screamer. So it is in learning to get into the Silence by stilling the ego voices that I can hear it speaking to me. Gathering all of my characters back into one place.

Ego mind not the physical body, does not accept anything or anyone outside of itself. It is always seeking to reinforce its separate identity. How can you tell who is leading?

Is what I am saying, or doing bringing me peace in this experience? A state of Oneness?

If it isn’t then it is ego at work distracting me with thoughts of ‘fixing’ my situation by using anxiety, worry, stress, running away from and struggling against myself and all the other characters of me playing out in others who are only a reflection of myself. Do you have feelings of uncertainty, unworthiness or competitiveness, needing to be heard, demanding others attention in some way or sulk in dark corners when you don’t get the attention you are seeking?

That’s just ego mind at work. It’s in remembering that you already have all of you and the ability to recognize the Voice that’s Authentically your own voice when it is speaking to you. You can hear it when you are willing to still all the chattering and listen. It takes practice to silence the ego’s voice. It is very clever and can create all manner of rabbit chases.

This is what I mean by my life being a bread crumb trail. I walk it backwards, retracing my steps, looking at it from a different way of seeing and hearing. I’m walking it not running away from it.  Calling my Authentic Self back from the four corners of my life and bringing myself all back into ONE. All of me as in all of you who have lovingly played your part in reminding me of this very Truth.

This is what Unconditional Love means to me. I see no enemies. I see aspects of myself that I must bring back into Unity as I realize all of me and my Divine Lover within is what is calling me to awaken.

My bread crumb trail transformed into my Path of Jewels Experience.

What have I learned from my Silent Witness so far?

Patience.

Trust.

That All is Well and is Perfectly unfolding in my life now.

Love is who I Am for I am the very Essence of Divine Love’s Light and Spirit Being-ness.

In closing, it is by every experience in my life that has brought me to this realization. It has come through the culmination of having had some very painful and hard lessons in my life to find myself in this place. My lessons seemed painful and hard because I wasn’t paying attention to my Inner Silent Witness, I was being distracted by my ego mind. I was choosing a pseudo-self shadow of an experience over my Authentic Light Being Self and that is what made it seem so painful and hard.

It’s the realization between finding one’s way home and knowing you never left it.

It is Divine Love’s ‘calling’ to me, shaking me awake from my dream of believing myself lost until I awaken and know that I am already home. I have all I ‘need’ right here, right now.

I leave you with two thoughts to tuck into your Inner pocket to sustain you today;

“There is no world outside us. The world is, in fact, our collective projections of love and fear, hopes and conflicts.”

A Year of Daily Wisdom by Marianne Williamson

“Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know

that everything in this life has a purpose.”

— Elizabeth Kubler-Ross

Love beckons…Do you recognize the sound of your Authentic Voice?

Many Blessings, Be Well and InJoy Being with the Silent Witness of your own life today,

Trust in the process of your life as you are now experiencing it,

As a Beloved Friend said to me recently,

Welcome Home,

Julia

“This too shall pass.” — Advisors to King Solomon

A benefit of growing up and maturing more into my second half of life experience is by simply being aware of how I viewed and handled my emotions up to this point in my life. I’ve changed my mind about a lot of things and how I perceive them from how I once did.

Emotions can encompass a wide range of feelings and sensations, anywhere from peaceful and mild to strongly overpowering and at times debilitating. Have you ever felt the effects of being on an emotional roller coaster ride which seem to come upon you when circumstances appeared to be beyond your control leaving you exhausted in its aftermath?

Are you able to remain steadily calm, strong hearted, remaining in the Center of Peaceful Silence during the storms and upheavals that come our way in life?

Remember being asked to draw a line down the center of a page and then being asked to separate out under the two given labels of good and/or bad feelings or pro’s and con’s and so forth? Are these the only two types of emotions?, or is there a balance, also known as a happy medium an in between? What are emotions for, why do we have them and what do we do with them when we are experiencing the ones that do not feel as ‘good‘ as the ‘bad‘ ones?

A wise friend once shared with me about getting too emotionally caught up (off balance) especially in the area of relationships,

“Don’t get too high on the highs and don’t get too low on the lows.” Stay in middle, (the center) and just go with it, the ups and downs, just ride them like a wave. “

— Rick Irons (Surf Pro)

Excellent advice. While this thought has always stayed with me, I’ve been reminded of this wise advice by having an inflow of experiences that have allowed me to understand by practicing this on ever evolving levels. My friend wasn’t saying to not have emotions, just not to allow myself to be ruled by them by getting stuck in them.

“In the Center you Master the Flow.” Find and get into the Rhythm of Life Flow.

Sounds wonderful doesn’t it? I just wasn’t there at that stage in my life. I was in my early twenties, and definitely ruled by getting stuck in my emotions. I wasn’t aware enough to know how to manage them, they just ’seemed’ to happen at a moment’s notice. It is a time in life when most of us are much more concerned with fitting in and being accepted by others, trying to please others, being too unsure of oneself and intimidated to rock the boat by being one’s Authentic Self.

I realize it is because I didn’t know who my Authentic Self was at the time. This doesn’t always appear as one’s conscious choosing.

Until I became aware that my emotional reactions were possibly based on a conditioned response, I would be given another repeat lesson (opportunity) to learn how to balance my emotions and be free from being tossed to and fro in an overwhelming sea of emotions. I’ve become aware of the value of re-tracing the repeated emotional reactionary or response patterns back to where they originated from. The ones that are subconsciously absorbed and ingrained by the emotional environment of one’s upbringing and until I understood this I would continue to repeat them and reinforce them.

This is an ongoing work in progress that can only be done within each of ourselves. It took awhile until I began to realize that I’m the only one who can allow by my own choosing the emotional reactions or responses I am having within myself and no one else can own that for me.

No one else can embody me by feeling my Inner feelings.

Whenever you have been present with someone going through a ‘trying’ and emotional circumstance, while you may be able to empathize your feeling with them you cannot feel (identify) what they are feeling by having their emotions for them. You can sense what they are feeling by receiving the energy of their emotions.

Empathizing without Embodying another’s emotions.

I’ve shared about the cycles in Nature. This has been very helpful for me in understanding how to ride the waves or rhythms of my life and emotions. Learning that each cycle comes round again. Another opportunity to gain higher ground in evolving in my Spiritual growth. Not trying to go out of sync by resisting them but allowing them to take their natural course by cycling through. Synchronizing with the cycles.

In light of all the discussions on positive and negative emotions, I’ve noticed the tendency to label positive as ‘good’ and negative as ‘bad’. Remove the labels and they are what they are. Emotions. They are indicators of where one is positionally from a Centered Calm. Emotions are neither good nor bad. I find that when I label something I resist it by not letting it go through its full measure by just being with it. It’s when its been allowed its full expression that it can play itself out.

It’s over, it’s finished. It’s run its course.

Yes, I have definitely spent a lot of energy working on having feel ‘good’ emotions all the time, especially if I am experiencing feeling ‘not so good’ emotions however, I noticed it would work only for awhile. Then something would come up and here I was swinging like an emotional pendulum once again, sometimes feeling it stronger than before. These emotions kept coming back because instead of just letting the emotion rise up and go, I kept suppressing the ‘not so good’ ones or trying to cover or change it with a peanut butter smear of get to ‘feel good’ thoughts. Why? Because I didn’t like the way I was feeling and I wanted to feel another way. I wanted to get away from it because I kept focusing on wanting to change it.

I kept running away from ‘feeling bad’ or negative emotion. When I was ‘feeling good’ I didn’t want it to end. This is also a sign of a lack mentality. ‘I won’t ever feel this happy again mentality.’ I looked at negative as a bad thing to be avoided and positive as a good thing to run towards and cling to. This is due to a conditioned labeling of emotional reactions or responses.

We all grow up by observing and subconsciously absorbing what is in our environment whether home and or societal influences and we notice that certain things are viewed as a standard of good or bad. Anger, depression, hurt, pain, sadness and grief are labeled as negative, bad or darker emotions. Happiness, joy, elation, upbeat is labeled as good, positive or lighter emotions. They are contrasts. How do we define joy if we have not experienced pain or sadness? They are indicators of where we are from our Center. That’s all they are,

Emotions are indicators of how I am measuring in degrees an experience. How I am perceiving what is happening and how am I defining what is happening to me. How do I get back into and remain in the Center? Your experience is showing you how.

By Asking our Higher Self, the Divine Spirit within us to show us how in being aware of what our Higher Self is showing us. The answer for me is usually given by an opportunity to learn, to find the balance by practicing in the present moment situation, becoming aware of the differences that lead me back to balanced Center. My lessons tend to repeat themselves until I am able to receive what I have asked for. I Ask, “What is this emotion showing me, what is it based on? What is the source of this emotion?”

I also ask for another way to see the situation, person or thing through the eyes of truth and not judgment.

I stumbled over emotions a lot especially in my earlier formative years and still do trip up at times. Only now, I am much more aware of my emotional cycles and learning to let them be by acknowledging them, and not making such a big deal out of them, or trying to change them by fixing them or struggling with them. That saps my energy more when I wrestle with them. Emotions do change and are only passing through in the flow of Life experiencing.

Energy flows naturally if left unblocked and not resisted. Go with it. Don’t be afraid of your feelings by resisting them.

Having our emotions is very much apart of our Spiritual Life experience here. I believe it has to do with accepting our Authentic Self and being okay with who we are and where we are in this moment. We spend so much of our earlier years stuffing our emotions down for fear of being rejected and not loved for having these feelings. We don’t seem to know what to do with our feelings. We also have these emotional roller coaster rides when we take our eyes off of our Authentic Self and aren’t at peace within ourselves and while we are with others. “If they only knew what I was feeling they would get angry, reject me, not love me or accept me.”

Unconscious (subconscious) beliefs lurking in the depths. Raise them up, let them out, release them. Your Authentic Self will have room or a vacuum to fill with new thoughts. The old thoughts have been allowed to surface. Look at them, acknowledge them and let them go. Like putting little notes in a bottle and sending them out to sea.

I am much more comfortable with myself now and allow myself to just be. I am with my sadness or down moments when they pass through and ask the questions if necessary. I go about my day in attuned waiting, and I stay in listening mode. The answer comes when I am willing to accept where I am in the moment. I am with the joyful, happy moments and allow myself to be with it and can let them pass through. I am not being ruled by being overcome with emotions as much and I am finding the Silent Center where peace resides more and more. This is because I am learning to love myself no matter what, happy, sad, joyful, mad and peaceful and anything else that flows my way. In being allowed to be in practice of this for many years, I notice that it has been bringing me to an understanding that the more I accept myself, all of myself I am more able to accept others as well.

Being in the Center doesn’t mean you turn into a robot. As a wise friend shared with me, “We are not robots.” We can be our Authentic Selves in our relationships with others when we remain in present moment and allow ourselves to express without our emotions spewing out all over the place by constant suppression and build up. You will find that while you may emote anger or hurt, it can be said in Love because it is being addressed as it comes up. Not after stewing for perhaps years. There is a balance in your energy.

Truth can be spoken in a calm state while getting your point across. It’s okay to say to another, “I am angry or hurt or happy by your statement. I felt misunderstood when you said this.” That is not disrespecting another’s emotions nor yours. This will change the way you relate with others because you are not holding past emotions under, ready to explode when one pushes the left unaddressed emotional button. The button will have already been diffused by releasing the source of the emotion if you have allowed Divine Spirit to show you how and where it originated from and set it free.

I’ve given my share of crying on friends shoulders and received theirs. In these moments we can put our arms around one another and just be with one another. It is okay to have days when we feel weak and need a friend to hold our hand while all we can do is cry. Our day comes to be strong for another when they are going through their own emotional cycles. This is life sharing life with another. Nature shows us this through the cycle of seasons. We can trust in the process which is always moving us forward. It grows us into deeper, richer, Spiritually evolving Beings. The sun rises but it also sets. And it comes round again every new day. We do not have to fear it. Love encompasses All.

Emotions are Divinely given and serve a wonderful purpose in our life experiences. It connects us with one another. We all share the same emotions just at different times.

I encourage you to Ask to be shown where you may have emotional wounds that need to be released and brought into the healing Light of Love. I encourage you to Ask to receive your Emotional Healing and to be able to express your Authentic Self, knowing that you are Loved without conditions. Your Whole Authentic Self.

Many Blessings, Be Well and InJoy Being your Wonderful Authentic Self,

All is Well,

Julia

“Attachment is the great fabricator of illusions;

reality can be attained only by someone who is detached.”

— Simone Weil

“Inside yourself or outside, you never have to change what you see, only the way you see it.” — Thaddeus Golas

“All organisms, including humans, communicate and read their environment by evaluating energy fields. Because humans are so dependent on spoken and written language, we have neglected our energy sensing communication system.”

—Bruce Lipton, Ph. D., in The Biology of Belief

I find my life experiences so far, come in stages. Sometimes it is the same lesson, just a different twist. Like an onion being peeled layer by layer until the heart of its substance is revealed. I heard and read about energy vampires and parasites years ago and have had my opportunities to experience them like most of us have.

I can remember when walking away feeling like I had been drained of all my life force energy. It was as though someone had pulled the plug on me. The ‘other’ left energized and I was exhausted. What happened?

I am a nurturer and enjoy sharing an uplifting, encouraging and empowering experience with others. I practice spending as much ‘time’ as I can in the Inner Chambers being empowered by connecting with my Source of Life Energy. I also understand that not all the beings I share this planet with choose to seek their connection from within because they are not always aware that they have it. They seek energy by taking it from others to give them what they are not always willing to do for themselves. Many are nice people. I don’t believe that most of them are aware that they are even doing these things, there are exceptions. People are here to grow us in our understanding of ourselves and others.

Recently, I was given an opportunity to experience being in the presence of an energy vampire or energy parasite. Another layer.

A couple of weeks ago my sister in Spirit ‘K’ called me and asked if I would like to spend some time away from my busy household to just be alone with myself. With a little gentle insistence she suggested that I house sit for her while she was away on vacation to experience the being alone in my physical body space along with connecting with my mind and soul. It was perfect timing for me. I said yes.

‘K’ mentioned that a man, a ‘friend’ of her’s whom I had not met and who had done wood work for her in the past would be there to put up a privacy fence in her backyard, as he would only be doing the back run, it would take no more than two or three days and he would be working outside, with access to use the facilities.

This would leave me an entire week to be alone with myself. Wonderful!

Well, I can be a magnet for ‘needy’ souls with bottomless ‘appetites’. I am what others have called approachable. I have a stronger inner sense of who I am and tend to draw those who are drawn to my energy and want to attach and feed off of my energy, again, not always intending to, just unwilling or unaware that they can do the work for themselves by recognizing it comes from within by connecting with the One Energy Life giving Source of All.

As Bruce Lipton’s quote states, we are all energy beings. All of life is energy in motion. We are equipped with an inner energy radar sensor and can sense energies in others when we are tuned into our own energy.

Energy Vampires and Parasites already have their own life force energy within themselves but choose instead to suck life force energy from others by neglecting or refusing to see and utilize their own. They just do not realize nor believe yet, in who they are in their True State of Being and so when they see someone who ‘has IT’, they look to another to give up their energy for them, instead of balancing and sharing mutual energy. Kind of like the ‘Grasshopper and the Ant” story.

They come in various disguises which can make it seem ‘tricky’ sometimes to identify them at first. How? Well they start off the conversation with an interesting or innocent topic or subject. Somehow in the course of chatting, they manage to bring their life troubles into it and off they go. They usually do not take the initiative to end the conversation.

Some come with ‘woe is me’ sob stories. I am speaking here of people who call or come by and are going through the same ordeal over and over again, year after year and have no intentions of doing anything to change it. (Broken Records). Their misery and complaining are their bed and brea