You Nique By Design

“Everything is so dangerous that nothing is really very frightening.”

~ Gertrude Stein

?”?Love is endless and timeless. Love is really the most powerful healing force that there is?Love for ourselves is the power that heals us. Practice as much as you can.”?~ Heart Thoughts by Louise Hay

Autumn is the season following the sifting and sorting harvesting of late summer. Now that the growing season is over, it?s time to clean up one?s growing bed and tuck it in before going into the deep restful slumber of winter.

It?s the perfect season to do some Inner House cleaning by observing what experiences to keep and what to let go of. Retaining the good fruits and allowing the residual to be returned to the soil to feed the life already coming round again.??Life cycles are so evident in Nature, showing us the experiencing of the natural death/life/death/rebirth transitions circling around within Ones self experience.

Personally, this year has been a culmination of another chapter in my life coming to full circle.

Throughout all of the experiences within?the last five years of my life, I realize now from this point that I was being asked if I was truly willing to know my Source of Life in true intimate fashion, something I asked for many years ago was coming full cycle and I now realized the I have and know my answer, it was given in the same moment by my agreeing to be willing to know my Source. It?s just taken me awhile to fully receive by accepting?this answer.

Eternal Life Energy is what is present in us embodying these forms. A Living Being having a life experience in human form.

Through all the losses and gains, growth and pruning, dividing and transplanting, allowing for more growth and expansion of knowing by trusting my True Source and through the uncovering of this relationship I have uncovered my relationship with my True Self.

Throughout the last five years, I have lived through many changes that were of my undoing. From letting go of my once known source of income, releasing outgrown friendships and also the family from my growing up years who would not allow me to be free from my past story, all this while adjusting as my children are growing on into their own adulthood stepping into their own Self.

All these events releasing, undoing more and more of my titles, roles and imagined responsibilities that once identified me as the me I really believed I was. ?I was finding myself in a very interesting place of no longer having any of these things to hold onto in which to define myself by.

What then is left?

The True Essence of my Authentic Self.?The real Me.

I found myself to have been covered over more and more by others ideas and expectations of who I was to them and should be. I had been buried underneath all the layers of the many costumes I have worn.

I was in a sense, buried alive.

It was time to cast them all aside and step into my Authentic Being.?The Being I have always been before ever experiencing being born and who I will remain as when I lay this clay vessel down. Being set free from all of this body?s limitations and free to grow on.

Julia, does it hurt to lose everything?

It hurts for as long as I keep holding on.

Is it scary??At first, there are moments? but then it feels wonderful.

Sounds like dying. What does it feel like to let go of everyone and everything familiar, you know how does it feel to die?

At first, there are moments of pain like being in labor and the contractions are growing deeper and more intense until you feel like you are going to crawl out of your skin. It?s the fear of not knowing what to expect. And then comes the moment of feeling the most intense pain and really coming to be in the feeling of one?s deepest fear, like you know you are dying and in this moment all you have left in you is to just breathe and Be with the pain. ?The fighting stops.

You accept where you are and are Being with IT. Not pushing it away or rejecting the idea of it any longer. You let go.

You have reached a moment of accepting the pain and not fighting against it any longer. You face it. That?s when something wonderful happens. It?s like free falling without a parachute. It?s sensation growing more in familiarity.

Then the peace of Love?s Presence is felt. The pain has been miraculously transformed into a deep peace in the moment of surrender.?Unlike anything you have ever experienced.

In your dying to all you have ever known, you are now free, unencumbered and alive and it is unlike anything you?ve ever experienced. An unexplainable deep Peace and calm comes over you. You feel completely still inside.

It is not coming from anything outside; this feeling is coming from the inside.

It is a Silent and Peaceful Presence.?It is you without any covers.

I can observe this Energy in motion now in my children?s, grandchildren?s and others lives growing along with mine. ?We are all experiencing the Eternal transformation of change together on a daily basis.

Through all of this my Living Energy Being is revealing that IT is moving with my body in these life situations, through all the expanding and growing, throughout the death/life/death/rebirth cycles of experience.

I Am Eternal Living Being ?doing? life.

It?s all about life.?Life is in motion through the life/death process of outgrowing its familiar shell.

Like the ending of a relationship whether by death, divorce or growing apart or circumstance.

Perhaps it?s a position or title we have held for many years and now it is no longer, or we are becoming an empty nester, losing our sense of Identity as a daughter, sister, partner, mother, grandmother, and friend, losing whatever we thought was our security or stronghold.??Whatever we believed we were.

In the perfect moment the Life Energy already expanding within is outgrowing its former level of existence and is ready to spread its roots and spring from the shell. The shell is then released and allows the Life Energy to grow on to fulfill its full potential. Expand its Life Energy.

Life is moving us out of our womb or comfort zone. We have outgrown our current existence. ??We are experiencing a Life change. An ending to allow a rebirth.

This is what True Love does.

It keeps growing you and within you by breathing you.?It lives through you from within.

Now I find there is an open space, there is room to grow into new arrivals, friends, lovers, new life adventures, new thoughts based on new ideas through new knowing.

A renewed (re-knowing) sense of who you truly are without any of the grave cloths or covers.

While birth can sometimes seem to be a violent process it is a transition into a new beginning. Sometimes it isn?t easy to let go and let the baby out. We are warm and comfortable here and want Life to remain as it always was. We are not ready to lose our loved one or known position or job, we don?t want our children to grow up and leave home or feel the loss of our Identity roles as we have for so long believed that this is who we were.

All of our attachments seem to be being taken away and we don?t always like it nor enjoy the process of this growth and expansion experience. We resist it.?We want everything to remain by holding onto all our stuff. We are focusing on all our stuff and not the Being under all the stuff.

We are trying to fit back into a space that is way too small to contain our expanding selves???The change is feeling very painful and sometimes we just don?t think we will ever be free or make it through this pain.

We are being shown in the pain the depths of our Being. We are Beings growing through this moment.?We forget that our Life is given one breath by one breath. We are given everything we need to make it through all our experiences here.??All pain comes from resistance. Not wanting what is and wanting it to be otherwise than what it is. Like digging ones heels in and saying no! I won?t grow.

It takes shifting one?s focus and attention into the experience of Being Present and going with what is and not in trying to focus on being somewhere else which makes the pain more obvious.?Life Force Energy is always growing and evolving and is never stagnant.

We are Eternal Life Force Energy Beings.

This is the one unchangeable constant in the ever changing life situations outside of us.?We just forget this when we are focused on pain and suffering.

One of Love?s ways of loosening the ties that binds us from remaining as lifeless seeds is in breaking up the fallow ground of our life situations. These upheavals are a loving reminder from our Higher Self to grow through the uncovering of our Authentic Self underneath all the layers.

The perfect moment has arrived to know the immeasurable power of our nature, our Higher Self, giving ourselves permission to live our lives in the fullness of our Authentic Being.

Otherwise, we may remain as a dormant seed hidden in the fallow ground of mediocrity, missing the knowing of our Authentic Self housed intimately within. Leaving our bloom unseen, our voice unheard, and our words unwritten?

In going through these kinds of experiences, we are brought into a moment of realization by the uncovering of what is most important. What truly defines us is our very Life Energy Force that is animating these physical forms from within.

In sharing with a Beloved Friend awhile back, I shared with him that I had attended an interesting funeral this year.

Mine.

I am now coming full circle by the acknowledging and surrendering into my dying to what once was, my past and by letting go of my old self identity I in turn received the gift of my Authentic Life.

My Individuality. My undivided Self.

My Presence in the Present moment.

I have experienced Being re-born or born anew.

I?m in the awe and wonder stage in this moment. Everything looks so new and surreal. My senses have resurrected too.?I am tender hearted. I am sillier and a lot more childlike in moments, even drawing strange looks from others but I don?t mind at all.??I out grew the shell of my former life and there?s no going back into it.

It seemed so scary and full of painful suffering until I let go of it, reached for the hand that was reaching for mine and took God?s breath as mine.

We are God breathed. Breath as One with God.

Instead of holding onto my breath, I inhaled God?s. I breathed in and noticed the amazing difference between being suffocated by being buried alive by false beliefs about myself and Being Alive in my True Self.

From breathlessness to breath filled Essence.

I encourage you today, to pause and be aware of how you are breathing. It reveals so much of where your Life Source is being drawn from.

Man looks only on the outer self, but God looks on the Inner Self.

Take a deep breath and Trust your Source of Life who only desires to give you the desires of your Authentic Self by giving you your Life Breath.

Be yourself for God. Be God Inspired, God breathed.

You are You~nique by Design.

Take your rightful place by taking your True Self with you everywhere you go.

Many Blessings and Be Well,

InJoy Being God?s Divine Expression, the Real Individual You in this Universe today,

Julia